One breath at a time 61" x 66" Acrylic on unstretched canvas
My current series is titled Lost and Found. That idea of losing and finding, of being lost and being found. It's challenging to be in situations where we don’t necessarily know the right way through or how it will turn out. It can be also valuable. Thoreau wrote in Walden, "It is a surprising and memorable, as well as valuable, experience to be lost in the woods any time. Not till we are completely lost, or turned round do we appreciate the vastness and strangeness of nature. Not till we are lost, in other words, not till we have lost the world, do we begin to find ourselves, and realize where we are and the infinite extent of our relations.”
In my painting practice, I intentionally (and often accidentally) get lost—a lot—so that I can discover something new. Not just getting lost in that flow state of creativity where time falls away (although also important), but getting lost where I can't predict the outcome and I'm forced to explore what's in front of me—in each moment. Look too far ahead or behind and things start to fall apart. Often it's uncomfortable and I don’t always like what I find, but there are those moments where I seemingly stumble across something fantastic that I could never have been planned. So, I try to accept that the uncertainty and doubt one feels—in art and in life—can be a helpful tool. Maybe it's telling us we are where we're supposed to be and we just need to keep moving forward. It's giving us an opportunity to appreciate and explore the vastness and strangeness of our human nature.